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Dream Interpreter

If your legs are weak, then you may be feeling emotionally vulnerable. To dream that your legs are wounded or crippled, signifies a lack of balance, autonomy, or independence in your life. You may be unable or unwilling to stand up for yourself. Perhaps you are lacking courage and refuse to make a stand.

Or...I might be hungry? Ptah. I'm so deprived. LOL

p.s- anyone knows where i can get all the 6 seasons of The Nanny? buzz me.

yuuuuuuuuuuuuuum, seng!

q: how many times can one be attacked by the bug?
a:...many times.

i awoke with this excruciating pain it's as though a root plated in the depths of my throat, clinging on like a parasite, has decided to just stretch and reach out for the sun instead of the gravity. and...i wasn't tempted to get medical leave. BANGGAAA!!!

partially because there's this huge presentation (that doesn't really need me to do the talking but i'm part of it) that i would not opt to miss and...everyone ie the clients are kissing the year goodbye next week onwards therefore workload hampers onto me like an avalanche. and i'm not complaining, pretty in contrast to how i've been feeling a couple months back. XD. the bitterness in px has subsided in conjunction to kwismas!!

on a brighter note, ZE KOMPANI...is SHUT from the 25 DECEMBER 2008 - 28 DECEMBER 2008 and then some days after UNTIL THE 2nd JANUARY 2008. if you're entitled to annual leaves, shaddap. cos i don't have them yet. will be away for kwismas but please do include my name into ur rombongan list. px nak pigi zoo negara. WEEEEE!!!

i was reading my older posts a while back, just because, and i realized i can be pretty random about things. just like how i blurted out this post that has no apparent objective while waiting for the meds to take effect on my systems. i...sound like an akua. i mite as well just lose the voice wholly. blehhh...


when mommy fed me this last nite, i tot it LOOKED pretty yummy. it's like those rm0.20 fruity jellies u get on the bus. and it does provide a temporary relieve. i took a pill too that apparently works for the itchy bitchy throat. it's so small i think it mite be stuck in the gaps of my teeth. please work on me!

ah pek if you're reading this, ALL YOUR FAULT. my turn to wear shower cap now le. huhu

* dear all, i think the colleague sitting behind me is reading this. everyone say hi.

eh no la...

its like the wild side of me has just decided to jam on the break and hit an abrupt halt draining away all the spirits and desire to party. *hears nat's distant cheer*...
babe how?!?! faster come back!!!

BUT...but...i'm refusing to believe cos...

for fuck's sake i'm only 22!!! is that old? is anyone convinced i'm of that age?

23 perhaps no? 24?...25? -.-...it's the genes. hmph

*wails uncontrollably*

anyway, i'm frank as shit here. the loft stinks like turtlepoo immersed in hydrogen sulphide. literally. one could only dance to their music if you've taken 5 doses ajinomoto+coke. there were small steps here and there you'd think you could walk straight but end up falling flat on ur asian face and...the sofa area smelt like puke. perfect.

anyway i drank a couple (not mentioning...not much...dun ask...still sober...not drunk...still remember what palpitation is), tried boogying cos i felt fat, skived to the toilet a couple times cos i had nothing else better to do, camwhored like crazy with he, she, it, they and us and...THE HORROR! i dozed off. so crever. *claps*...no i think laling dozed off and i stoned...i have no idea but it was terrible i wished i had just stayed home and watched the christmas tree lights change color.

leongchaikin, leongpeixzan, laling channeled to the sleeping mode

the jb gang without the outcasts ie me, me, me and...who else? me?

the leong outcasts pouting for obvious reasons.

there goes our presents from santa. sigh

known as the-ex. tak tau nama dah.

i know 1's rachel and another tammy. but erm...

from my face you know i'm too shy to ask which is which so...

i remember there's 1 lily. and no, not from the Chins.

but apparently her pictures with me are...undetectable.

and there were about 15 other people loitering around. no i dunno who.

i'm gonna watch the lights turn color now.

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the office needs to de-germ, if there is even such a term.

an enclosed air-conditioned, carpeted, stessful small room with 20 sick beings and 30% insectiside-filled-molecule air is...terribly unhealthy.

*downs yummy-green cough syrup*

*BLEK!!!*

*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

Confusions

I can foresee myself being clouded throughout the entire weekend. Reason being:

1) Can anyone tell me exactly why is it that when i type in www.blogger.com i'm led to the google portal? -.-

2) Why does the puzzle all fall in place ITSELF though untouched like...WHAM! even when I've decided to just toss it aside and not meddle with it anymore? -.-`

3) Why do all parties come together in the same day? And every party has their own engaging prospects. T.T

I suddenly feel as though I've plunged into this indecisive cave that even choosing my own lunch on whether I wan chicken head or chicken drumstick would be a backbreaker. I'm really being a fat bitch for complaining that I have more positions offered to me at this point. But why la come after I've made up my mind to stay...and worst of all - the offer is inviting. goddamn inviting. *whacks head*

It's like u're super full from dinner and have decided that ok it's time to put the fork down and suddenly, the chef comes out of nowhere and shoves a tub of chocolate fondue packed with strawberries and marshmallows and tells u...'TAKE IT! TAKE IT!' (indian accent) then BOOM! explode for being overfed like a goldfish. no actually, i dunno if the prospects are promising OR overwhelming over at the new place but...it definitely is something i'd prefer doing compared to retarded client servicing. and for toppings, u can choose between a douchebag boss or a complete freak-ass who sings lke the cuckoo of the unwound hanging clocks. perfecto~

BUT, i wan to be part of sumthing prestigious...sum state-of-the-art project that has skyrocketting results. which i dun think movies like mandagascar can provide that satisfaction. NOT with that...'I LIKE TO MOOBIT MOOBIT *shakes ass*'. might as well just really move it, dig a hole and die.

can i just put on my sleeping cap and hit the sack until sum1 pays me at least rm3k? i'll leave. no questions asked. sigh. xmas party was good. it dun feel so left out. yay (monotonous due to the confusion that's restricted the mechanism my voice box)

babi jgn jeres. :D

Japs Oh Japs...

was the writer deprived of late night outings?

would be nice if jamie chung plays mamak.

*inside joke*

this post is so random.

but i just wanna say i've NOT watched twilight and i'm yearning for it.

and i have this feeling i'm gonna fall so deeply in love with the lame, pale, vegetarian vampire.

still can't believe they termed them vegetarian. ptah!

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digressing...beats me how technology works these days.

you know how some phones are so awesome they just work exactly like an amplifier?

oooh laaa laaa...so nice no need radio jst on my phone and press play. or even better! i set it as ringing tone let it ring ring ring so everyone knows i so power got nice phone and awesome song!!

seriously, nobody wants to know from which prehistoric period u got that aweful tone. i dun think it's even playable on a gramophone. and i seriously believe that calculator-like device of yours has a SILENT MODE so can't you just fucking move your limp fingers, mute it like many other considerate being and...please for mother of all gods, dun sing along. 2 landslides in a month is bad enuff.

/BIG SMACK!

oh...already?

i reread my last post of the previous year and realized i convinced myself that i shall not make anymore resolutions as it usually ends up unfulfilled or...i just don't even remember making them at the first place. yes if you do not know already, i'm pretty oblivious and it's been like that eversince...erm...yeah ends there.

i'm diverging. this declaration shall now only consist of one matter and the only matter that has been circulating my life profoundly that needs severe consideration. yes la crever! one big smooch on ur big arse if u gave a shot at the loathsome noun - work.

and no, althou the fact that i've finally began to be able to think like a being that's undergone a full development in the growth of the mind and soul (besides my absurd liking for ponies and candies and cartoons and...many other things made for human no taller than 60cm) does not mean that i have passion for the job that i'm currently doing. i'm giving myself time. hope. encouragement and hopefully a stint of motivation from the external sources, that the service i'm currently attached to is gonna last me a while before i mentally burn out and decay into a pot of silvery ashes.

and if all hopes are defined, *fingers flexibly & tightly crossed* i hope to be in for the next awards, not knowing if i ever could with the accounts i'm handling and not a screaming siao cha boh that gives standing ovations to my beloved company albeit knowing almost nuts about what they've gone thru. *smacks head*...(u're 2 months old wonky bitch! patience!) ok i hear u screaming that statement so control me when i rant. XD

ooooo! and with the writing skills' plummeting lower than a sunken rut can go, i need to do sumthing. and speaking almost everyday to a client that has problems spelling the alphabet A is not helping thank you. it's like trying to dig the grain of fiber stuck in between the 2 molars at the end of your gum. u've gotta yank ur finger in and fork it out but the deeper you dig with saliva dripping, the inner it goes. how leh? kenot speaking too proper cos auntie no understands. shucks.

hmm...enuff ranting. this is gonna be the last emofied post of the year and rest assured, all postings after this will be about parties parties parties...and parties. why? because christmas is coming and PERPETUAL HOPE IS LOOMING IN THE AIR!! BLISS OH BLISS!!! (and someone is coming back and hopefully my souvenir is as big as promised too. YAY!!!)

to kick off, ikano has sum really pretty decorations with little polystyrene snowballs falling all over i'm pretty sure sum kurang ajar kids will pick them up and toss into their mouths when their parents aren't watching. XD. it's not as impressive as mv's theme but oh well, got carols, got big fat santa, got sexy short skirt santa rina confirm ons!!! so we did sumthing that normally swear we won't do.

one nice happy family camwhoring at a local mall. LALALA

she's already adopted the lansi photographic skill of looking away when the camera snaps

all lovey dovey with maid looking from behind. XD.
ironically, the maid seems to appear in many pics. accidental apparently. O.o

not told that the season is here.

now it's here! c that dazzling hopeful eyes? XD

WHOOSH!

ponder ponder ponder

have you ever experienced this convulsive churn in ur digestive system that make you go all sweaty and u know u can't let go of anything from the bottom cos obviously sum excretion would follow suit? u're not home and the nearest washroom is this moist, dark and malodorous cubicle right next to the kiosk. u park ur car thinking u've stepped into heaven, grab a pathetic piece of kotex left in ur bag and rush in to do ur bisnes, tiptoeing even with a thick-soled shoe protecting.

while trying to release, an unearthly bug say...an earthworm climbs out from those rusty drain stoppers and works its way towards u. all of a sudden, the indon auntie that chooses to clean the toilet everytime sumone is minding their bisnes bangs on the frail plastic door (locked using a string tied to a screw) screaming at you for taking too much time. u're nervous, the door's about to break open and suddenly, the tummy stops churning ultimately!

u zip up, stare at the fucked up dwarf sized foreign maid ferociously and walk back to ur car thinking everyting's great. u happily stop by the mart to buy urself a ribena on sale, hop on ur vehicle, start the engine, push to D and then...the churn returns. -.-

it's just like working isn't it. there are the ups and downs. when you're inexperienced, the new environment is always clouded compared to home. and there'll always be this punani neanderthal that irritates the shit out of you and they ALWAYS appear to have the authority to do so. and when you're getting slightly used to the disturbing environment, the challenges come lke the bug. it smells fear. the more it piles up, the nearer the threat comes.

2 months back, i'd choose to leave. i'd rather shit in my pants than to digest all the pain and before doing so i'll grab the mop from the maid and yank it into her mouth. but now i've learnt to tie the string a couple times so that the auntie doesn't break open and see my shit half dangling before it thuds into the bowl just like how i'll take precautionary steps to ward off unholy beings in the office. besides, i'll pick up the skill to dart the only tissue i have in hand to divert the bug to another direction (or crash it either way i win) so that i can just shit in peace. i can have ribena as a reward and i leave the toilet a stronger and lighter person. *px folds arms - HMPH!*. and if the churn returns, i'll have pil chi kit teck aun la next time!

many petrol kiosks along the highway have depreciated and of course toilets oso dah kurang. so it's not wise to leave one safe cubicle i've found first, unless there's this super tandas like the one at the gardens kan?

if you dun understand...its just cos u're not at my level. u need to be on IV for a couple days, get ur blood tested and...u must love ponies and cotton candies at 22.

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i drank a little champagne and wanted to write. it's such an inspiring tale of how my mind suddenly took a 360 degree turn after i won myself an orimpus camera. how easy can my mind be bribed?! O.o
it's actually pretty impossible to use the camera and take a picture of itself like some of you have recommended, did u realize? so if you're interested, google OLYMPUS FE-20.

i know i know...i was just lucky la. and after a couple months of bitterness i think i deserve a little candy for the tart-y soul! like this:

natural porn. pop them into ur mouth and...they're meat free! so healthy!
fuck i'm gross i know.

@ le meridean sum time back. i innocently believe that i've shed sum light pounds after the fever. my hair's much longer and...i need to lose more.

randomly, yearning for timtams even if it's not the biscuit literally is...unhealthy. tsk tsk. *shakes it off my mind*

on a happier and more 'undertandable' note, IT'S A LONG WEEKEND!!! CAN U SMELL CHRISTMAS ALREADY?!??! neither can i yet la but then oh well...syok sendiri a bit can or not? MV's GIVING AWAY FREE BALLOONS WITH THE PURCHASE OF A FAIRY COTTON CANDY AT RM2.50!! SO GO GRAB UR SWORDS AND UGLY CROWNS NOW!!! (tell the sissy gypsy u dun wan the pink sword. he seems to be giving the ugly tone to everyone).

i can now play lightsaber myself.
HOLY MOLY! PONY MASUK CAMERA!! *shy*
supposed to be xmas gift but...oh well. XD