this shudn't be happening...

everyday i plant myself before the computer waiting for some random thoughts to flash past my mind just so i can transform them into words and blurt them out over here.

FYI, to my very few readers, nothing's wrong with your computer if u're still avidly returning to read my random atrociously vulgar posts and noticed a step missing. i've just unlocked it cos i believe i wont be bitching as much as i did previously. oh well and i think i'd be the only one reading all these jibberish so to myself, welcome back to the open space. XD

i'm pretty satistfied with my current job really. -.-.

ok i confess. i did feel miserable and dejected the first couple days ranting on twitter every 5mins about how solemn the whole environment is made me yearn for my ex colleagues' presence awfully. but like wat the ex-art director said, "take it as a si man boot camp lo. big gal d k". yes, papa.

besides feeling rather incompetent, intimidated and still struggling to adjust to the whole corporate system, i have no complaints. OH WAIT yes i do. i can't msn. they allow skype though but only 1.89510% of those within my contacts have it. wtf.

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THAT...was writting approximately a week ago.
i vowed that i'd blog more considering i'd need to ensure that i do not falter. especially when i'm talking to my bosses. cos i tend to. it's like i'm some retarded child. oh wait i am. *.*

FAIL. wrote a couple lines and was distracted hence continuing now.

it's been 3 weeks since...(sunway i mean)
work's tight but manageable.
i'm still very slow. i even confessed to the boss. nola not say i love u. i dun always do that ok. thou it mite happen every now and then. XD
i can still manage my datelines.
by staying up really late just so i can finish that few pieces of articles and letters. i'm pretty sure real writers can do it within like...30mins? 20? 10 perhaps? :S...right babi? munkie? theo if u're still reading?

le sigh.

i shall read more movies and watch more books. i mean...u know what i mean. *flips open calvin&hobbes and switches to starworld for simpsons* XD

notable highlights @ work:
1) the boss goes around telling everyone...'she's 22 oni u know!!! looks so matured rite?!' - shush my bday's oni in nov so i'm still 22 legally!...despite accepting the fact that i look awfully old for my age, the catastrophe hit when i had to go to thestar for a forum and everyone met my mama. fact that mommy is hotter than me despite being thrice my age is not the worst, she...she...probably looks younger than me when i'm in office wear. *officially plunges into depression*. i'm gonna go police training. then i can wear uniform. haih

2) she also says...'this xiao jie hou sik duc wan lo!!' which means i can blady eat. -.-...fact is...i need to munch when i have to think and i have cravings when i'm stressed. therefore, cinnabbon has been the antidote to my deprivation. furthermore, i can share it with everyone in hopes that they'll love me more. XD

LOL. the boss is funny. so much better than the cranky old wan. *ok dun jinx dun jinx*

3) i finally solved the mistery. besides being paper free, the entire building is oso kaninechaochibainiamommysohprawn free of vulgarity. took me sum time to get used to the professionalism. the worst i've ever encountered would probs be: crazy ar. -.- ...reason being - u get disciplinary action if caught swearing. nono...u cud be fired. diuuuuuu...

4) the colleague has a collection of 911's greatest hits.

AND...finally,

5) i have acccess to youtube. SWEEET. do u think i can make an acquisition for msn too?

AWESOMESAUCE.

now i shall sleep. the pressure's coming back.
hmm...

Bliss

sometimes, problems can only be solved when confronted face to face

or at least initiatives are taken to overcome it.
and its a blessing that the other party accepts it with an open mind...and peace? WAHAHAHA

shot this on the way back from the office. cantik kan?! from a certain angle la.

i was so glad it's a friday and i could leave before the sun sets entirely i stopped at a kiosk nearby and got myself a magnum, wasabi twisties, kitkat and ribena. whacked 'em all wei. mcb.

oh it's been a while since i've spat any foul words at anyone. not including the facebook chats with sidney quah...no...i'm clean. the colleagues dun even sigh when they're stressed. they should be given the agency training. at least they'd sound slightly normal.

mehhhhhhhhhh.

happy holidays everyone. 72 hours or non-stop lazing is blady appealing...enthralling. AWESOMESAUCEEEEE.

Oh well...

This is slightly overwhelming.

Give yourself time peanut. Time!

Ok.

Sigh.

sanity

this shud've come earlier.

if i had not joined bbdo...

and i kinda thank god i did. althou work's O.o.

cos i had a couple more months to bond with the colleagues that i'd prefer to call frens now.

a couple months extra before i step into the corporate world.

a couple months for...so many things i'd rather explain using pictures but then it's 11.40pm now and in approximately 7 hours, i'd be heading out towards a whole new working experience.

GASP.

and in the midst of the emo-ness, besides the occasional msges from the sister and friends and ex colleagues, things like this warm me up.

*****

i stole the following picture from nowa's blog. it has been set as my office pc wallpaper for the past...whole year perhaps. LOL

i wont drink milo alone in the new office.
i'll get my own cup.
I SO MISS UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!

was supposed to...

blog about the past year.
about the ups and downs of my first working experience.
about leaving the company for real.
how it's only sinking in now...

and i'm falling ill.
WOI! WHOLE WEEK IM FREE NOW ONLY U COME!
GONNA START WORK D WEI!!!

@E^(*YDWH)*&EHYH!!!!!

totally not prepared.
i dun even have the proper attire.

i think i'm more emo than i tot i'd be.
not the the extend of burning the place down thou.
*chuckles*

fuck you!
i wanna sing a taylor swift song.
YAY!
goonai.

the couple things that i wont be able to do anymore out there...

probably the longest title i've ever inserted.

but yeah. i'll miss these inappropriate gestures that i've thought to be extremely normal even when it is packed with other people.

totally despise students that score doing this jump. but wtf. i'm not a student. my grades stink. i have all the reasons to do fucked up poses.

hold a malibu bottle and run around with a reindeer headband when christmas is...5 years away.

have colleagues do gross poses together after lunch (hence the crowd) in IKEA.

*grins*

a boss that's scarier than me.

facebook and msn during office hours...which i was initially forbidden to do but I DUN GIP A FUCK. HEAR ME?! I DUN GIP A FUCK.

playdoh during working hours. throw shit around and u get people clicking on 'LIKE' after posting it up on facebook.

lunch for 5 hours.

karaoke. free flow. all paid for.

and last but not least...

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imagine if id to do this in sunway.

do u think they'd lock me up forever?

Hello World

i owe the keyboard and the blog an apology.
keyboard cos i haven't been particularly gentle as time spent at home on the computer is basically used to channel my anger.
blog cos...i saw a string of cobweb lying across the page.

and as usual, when i'm supposed to be frantically completing the deck for a presentation on monday (to be approved by the boss tomorrow MORNING), i had this desperate urge to blog. in other words i think it's also called slacking, procrastinating...or just being plain lazy.

after such a long introduction, i don't even remember the purpose of me blogging anymore.

oh well sumthing worth mentioning, I LEFT THE OFFICE AT 8.03pm on a FRIDAY NIGHT and had a SLIGHT adrenaline rush when i saw the TRAFFIC JAM as i haven't been able to be part of such a huge vehicle party for a while now.

honestly, i was happy to see a jam.

until i felt hungry. *stones*
u know the time of the month, when u're losing monthly red blood cells, hormones fluttering all over the place, all u wanna do when u're hungry is just to slap sumthing rich, sinful and orgasmic into ur blady mouth.

for a split second i wanted to tahan till i reach kfc and have my dose of zinger burger. fail. jam. kenot make it. esso's a couple yards away though but it's still nearer. oh! the emergency lane's pretty empty. shud i g...oh!! a car zooms past!! i shall follow!!!

fuck.

mr.mata diri kat depan tunjuk tangan suruh henti pastu yang seterusnya tidak bisa dieksplainasi unless i wanna be marooned to taiwan or sumthing. pendek kata, i'm poorer by a bit now. *BAWLS*

moral of the story is...freaking finish ur work in the office! now get slapped in the face!...seriously i rather get slapped. hmph

digressing, REAL points worth mentioning:

UNO) i quit. yes, again shaddap. 2 more weeks hopefully.

DOS) i went wakeboarding, burnt both my arms and they're still peeling. BUT I LOVE IT!

TRES) i'm gonna get a new phone just so i can have gps and so everyone can't laff at me for being road blind anymore. hmph.

QUATROS) i'm also gonna b red headed without the consent of my family cos i'm pretty sure they're gonna say...'START NEW JOB DUN DO RUBBISH LA!'...i wonder if i can brainwash the corporate world. le sigh. i'll so miss jeans and tshirt. :(

...LIMA) i'm...broke.

OH WOW SUCH A LONG POST! I ROCK. back to work.